The Dress

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When I was a child I was sneaky. Being an only-child and not having anyone to tell on me, I thought I could get away with more. This wasn’t always true. My mom seemed to know the truth most of the time! Did she really have eyes in the back of her head? Were there hidden cameras? How did she know? My mom used to tell me “Momma’s know” and she was right! Momma some how did know!

Well not long after we got married, Momma told me that we’d have a daughter. She often spoke of her “grandgirl” and once even gave me a whole bunch of stuff she’d been collecting & making. Dresses, booties, blankets, etc. She crocheted and crocheting for her “grandgirl” was no different. She handed it to me & told me, “This stuff is for your future daughter. Put it up.”

“Oh mom! This stuff is beautiful! WOW look at this dress. I can see a little girl wearing this dress for Christmas……But mom, you know that I just had a hysterectomy because of the cancer. Unless we adopt, and that won’t be any time soon, I won’t ever have a daughter.” I told her.

“Yes you will. Put it up.” She assured me. “Trust me, I WILL have a grandgirl.”

Thinking she’d gone crazy and not wanting to disrespect my Momma, I acquiesced and brought the stuff home-packing it away in the attic. I wanted more children, but in the back of my mind I wondered if the reason I’d gotten cervical cancer again was God’s way of ensuring that I didn’t have any more children.

I prayed and prayed. In my heart, I’ve always wanted a lot of children. But ultimately, I knew my life was in God’s hands. It’s all up to Him. If and when He wanted me to have more children, the doors would open.

Well now that we are getting ready for our adoption (of up to 2 girls I might add), I’m going through some of our packed up things. And I came across the dress.

I hugged it.
I cried.
I want my Momma here with me to share in the joy of having her “grandgirl”.

How can one piece of clothing mean so much? How could she have known?

Now we are getting a daughter (or two)…and Momma knew.

Momma’s always know…

Nikowa is a 3rd year homeschooling mom to two boys. With her “learning never ends” philosophy, they have an eclectic year-round approach to learning. When she’s not teaching, she enjoys photography, organizing, cooking, and reading. She is a #1 LOST fan and watches UGA football too! (Go Dawgs!) You can visit Nikowa at Knowledge House Academy.